I am burnt out and I haven't really studied for this final. today we made poached salmon w/ a buerre blanc sauce and rice pilaf. and some sole dish I have no energy at all. At the beginning of this class I wanted to complete it with a high GPA but now I just want to pass this final exam and sleep in for the next 10 days. I am not the fastest or most consistent person in the kitchen, but I gave it a good shot at doing my best, although my best wasn't good enough, I could have done a lot better. I have been writing these journal in my sleep, so there has been a lot of miss spelled words, dates have repeated them selves on occasions, and at best just to keep up has been a challenge. I can do this cooking thing and now I need to go from having a passion to keeping a burning desire for this dream I have. I wake up at 4:45am and don't go to sleep until 11:00pm, I have been plagued with migraines and loss jobs, so if this is what I want to do then I need to live myself into this new way of life. No one said it was going to be easy and yes this is getting fun but at the end of the day like now (10:17pm) is it all worth it? my answer is yes it is but damn it! this is no walk in the park. Tomorrow starts our 3 days of final exams and the cooking shouldn't be a problem and the written should either but I am human so I am now doubting myself. I am going to pray about it and sleep on and be ready for what ever to have in class tomorrow. Good Night I am drained, burnt out and...
So until tomorrow peace out.
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